Monday, January 31, 2011

Good King-Bad King


As I am reading through the Bible in 90 Days I am enjoying getting a bigger picture of God's story through His word. This week I have been reading through 1 and 2 Kings and have been impressed at how the kings were described as either

Good
Did right in the sight of the Lord
....Just as their father did....
....no one like him before or after
....held fast to the Lord....

But:
Did not destroy the high places

or

Did evil in the eyes of the Lord
...Sinned more than all those before him...
...considered it trivial to commit sin...
....would not listen
stiff necked
did not trust in the Lord
followed countless idols
did not turn from sins
....sacrificed their sons and daughters....


As I read about these kings (39 of them) only 8 were recorded as GOOD kings.
It is eye opening to me to think:

How will I be described at the end of my life....
Am I wholeheartedly seeking the Lord, trusting Him,
or am I stiff necked.....
following him BUT....not in certain areas of my life????

I think it can be overwhelming to think about a lifetime of following after the Lord...
but this passages remind me that I want my life to honor the Lord in ALL aspects.....
By crying out to Him daily and depending on HIM... to help me

Honor Him
Trust Him
Walk with Him.


Friday, January 21, 2011

He Reigns!!


My good friend Carol called me and asked me to join her for a concert with Rebecca St. James and Mercy Me. The proceeds for the concert were benefiting Heroic Media.... a ministry that provides all kinds of media to help women consider LIFE giving alternatives when faced with unexpected pregnancies.

I was excited to spend time with her. We always have so many fun things to catch up... answers to prayer, concerns and a good laugh about something. We were excited to hear Rebecca St. James and hear about her passion to help women facing crisis pregnancies. Her radiant love for the Lord and beautiful voice were so uplifting.

One women shared her story of becoming pregnant as a college student. Hearing her tell her story (some 27 years later) and the pain that she still felt in her dark hour of need was very gripping to me. She wrestled with so many issues... people's acceptance of her, and ultimately her choice of what to do. She did choose LIFE and has not regretted in any way.

Hearing her story was a great reminder to me of the complexity of this issue and the pain and emotions that so many women wrestle with. We are all broken people and have so much going on with so many areas of our life.... and when someone extends grace and hope in our time of need is such a gift.

I had always like Mercy Me but wasn't aware of all the great songs they sing. The main singer (I don't even know his name....) Shared some great insights about how precious we all are in God's sight. He talked about his children and the love he has for them.... and they have for him.. but at this point in their young age their love for him looks so immature.

I think when any dad talks about his sweet children it gives such a tender picture of God's love towards us too. I know as a mom I would give and do anything for my girls.
Hearing his simple, unconditional love for his children was
a sweet reminder to me of God's love for me.

Gosh why do I still not "get it"????

And then hearing YOU REIGN.... was a great reminder to me of HOW GREAT and HOW awesome our God is... and that HE DOES REIGN....
even when I was worried and bothered and anxious about so many things.....
HE REIGNS!!!!!!

What a great evening with my dear friend..
and to be reminded of God's love...
and to hear about a ministry that is changing lives around the world.

So thankful!



Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Lavished by God


Recently I found a little locket as I was cleaning up my daughter’s Rachel’s room. It was a locket she bought from someone else when she was probably 8 or 9. She put a tiny picture of me and her big sister Lauren Claire and also one of Warren in and wore it for a short time. She wanted to wear a reminder of her family… to show others that she was loved and that she belonged to us. I think this is an expression the longing that we all have to be loved and to know that we are part of a family.

About that same time I also came across a passage in Scripture that I still think about often.

I cannot quite grasp all that it is saying…

I John 3:1 says

"How great is the love you have lavished on me that I should be called a child of God.

And that is what I am!"

Lavished. I have been intrigued by the idea of God lavishing his love on me. What does that mean? Have I experienced that? Why or Why not? I think in our tangible kind of world it is very hard to understand or experience God’s extravagant love.

The dictionary defines lavished as

great in quantity or richness.

Very generous in giving.

Extravagant

Wasteful.

Other words that are similar are

lush, plush, swanky, ritzy, first class.

At times it is hard to grasp this idea of extravagance because

we have such a high value living economically.

This passage says God declaring us his child.. that we are in HIS family is a demonstration of his extravagant love toward us.

I have thought of a few snapshots of lavish love that I have been thinking about to help me begin to wrap my head around this idea of God’s lavish love.

As a parent sometimes I feel a tiny bit of what I think God must feel toward us in the ways he lavishes his love on us. When our oldest daughter when away to college she and I were excited to make her dorm room look cute and comfortable. She and her roommate picked out fun black and white comforters. I made at least 6 or 7 coordinating pillows to go on their beds. Black and white, green and pink and purple. Very cute.


Before she left I wrote her a note and said I hoped that the beauty and excess of pillows (well yes maybe I made a few too many but they did have the cutest room on the floor!) would be a reminder of God’s lavishing love and care for them in their tiny dorm room.

While we do look for tangible evidences of God’s love (and that is what makes it so hard for us to really trust that God loves us at times when life falls apart and things do not look or feel the way we think a loving Father would act toward his children. This passage says just the fact that he calls us his children is a demonstration of the all that He has lavished on us.

The Lord was gracious to Warren and I and gave us both of our girls through adoption. I hope that our girls can see more and more all that God has lavished on them by being a part of the Culwell family. (Not that we are perfect by any means.... but they have had a loving father and mother that has given them love, godly direction, healthy family relationships, consisitency and so much more).

A picture of this extravagant God that we know is also shown to us in Luke 15 which tells about the story of the Prodigal Son.. as Tim Keller says in his book called Prodigal God…. He is extravangant and wasteful toward us. As the younger son is fearfully returning home, we see the Father waiting eagerly for his son. Rushing out to embrace him and lavishing his ring, throwing a banquet, etc. for him. He also reaches out the angry older son by moving towards him asking him to join in the celebrating.

What reasons do I have to keep my distance or be doubtful of God’s amazing, lavishing love for me? I want to relish daily in this extravagant love He has for me!